this is my august summarized:

1. i celebrated my best friend's birthday (hi kaela) and went to my friend's housewarming party (hello nick and julia)
2. i went out to dinner by myself for the first time . this was one of my goals for the year so hooray :D
3. i played peak with my friends and it was so funny that i almost started crying from laughter
4. gave up on growing my hair out (derrek helped me cut it hehe)
5. i started learning how to knit again !! i took this fibers class in college and knitting was one of the skills we were taught but i didn't retain Any of it . it was so hard for me to grasp the techniques back then... when you're 25, everything finally starts to make sense LOL
6. i officially started the fall semester for my BS

i used to really despise fall cuz i kept associating it with sadness and loneliness but i've finally knocked off the habit . i'm so excited for festivities this year +_+

anyways, i've got to get back to homework naow... until october...!

status: i looove writing academic essays

09/01/2025 • 12:28 p.m.

this is my july summarized:

1. i celebrated 4 years with my partner (love u derrbear ❤️)



2. i saw my former coworkers at a birthday party... there was a dj set in the garage but it was waaay too hot for that LOL . idrk what they were thinking . arizonans make do i guess
3. i spent a day out in town with some beloved friends . we had sammies, visited a local bookstore + record store, and celebrated national lollipop day (i marked this on my calendar sometime in late june because i saw a flyer for it in the mall.... LMFAO)
   
   my haul, left to right: authority by jeff vandermeer, the power of cute by simon may, the secret lives of color by kassia st. clair, still by erika de casier, 2 free lollipops from see's candies 😭 (not pictured)
4. i struggled like hell to draw for art fight (art blocked from a depressive episode smh)

this month, i'll be going back to school; i'm starting a new chapter of my life where i'll be pursuing my second degree—a BS in social and behavioral sciences . i'm really excited but also a bit terrified... it's been 3 years since i graduated college . what if my head's full of rocks now.... but there's no point in self-doubt . i'm determined to learn and apply the knowledge that i do have to my studies !! i just have to remember self-discipline when it comes to deadlines since it'll be completely online this time around o_O

status: today is a filler episode

08/02/2025 • 06:02 a.m.

i meant to write about my may and june experiences but... as you can see... i did not 😎 heh heh . but i will now !!

before talking about the awesome parts, i'd like to make a note that my home life is kind of poop right now cuz of my parents... and since may and june are months that celebrate mothers and fathers, i'm taking a moment to say it's okay to have complex and/or negative feelings about your parents . and it's okay to say FUCK MOTHER'S AND FATHER'S DAYYYY !!!!!! moving on.........

this is my may summarized:

1. my friends and i went to a 90's house night at a gay club in town . it was... crazy . cuz it really was like this tumblr post
met some beautiful souls, had some drinks and street tacos, and danced the night away
2. i got an upper endoscopy and a colonoscopy 😀 it was fine... the experience itself was the best cuz my partner took care of me pre- and post-op though
3. i forced my partner to watch naruto (which he loves now)

this is my june summarized:

1. for a couple of nights, my best friend and i kept our good friend company while she went through umm....... a crazy break-up? well they sort of broke up and then got back together haha 😀 all i got to say...? the lesbian dating scene in az is a difficult one
2. i celebrated my partner's birthday and then my own . love my friends sm !!!!
3. i went to the casino w/ friends for the first time (came for the vibes)

status: realizing i can only bring myself to update my website when i Really feel like it.......

07/01/2025 • 10:58 p.m.

hi hi hi !!!! it's been a bit so let me write of my recent adventures (reverse chronologically)

04/12: the besties and i went to go see the naruto: the symphonic experience and it was seriously awesome . they encourage the audience to interact with the performance (ex. when an iconic scene is played, you can cheer) so you know i had to cry and clap whenever gaara was on screen........... but omfg . when kimimaro was on screen, everyone cheered (of course) but i screamed so loud that my voice filled the entire theater 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they don't understand how serious i am about him

03/28-03/31: spent a few days in chicago to visit my brother w/ the lads

03/21: our wonderful friend maddie visited hehe . we hung out late into the night.. and of course, we went into a photo booth for some printable memories

02/06: my friend malina and i went to a lesbian bar and i tried to help her get some ladies' numbers #NightLife

we took these super cute photos and i love them sooo much but it kills me so bad cuz WHY DO WE LOOK LIKE JOHN LENNON AND YOKO ONO HELP MEEEE 😭

do you see it...? i think it's my glasses.........

anyways, that's my beautifully busy late winter + spring season so far ^_^ wish spring could last just a little longer . i don't miss the summer heat.....

02/06: my friend malina and i went to a lesbian bar and i tried to help her get some ladies' numbers #NightLife

we took these super cute photos and i love them sooo much but it kills me so bad cuz WHY DO WE LOOK LIKE JOHN LENNON AND YOKO ONO HELP MEEEE 😭

do you see it...? i think it's my glasses.........

anyways, that's my beautifully busy late winter + spring season so far ^_^ wish spring could last just a little longer . i don't miss the summer heat.....

status: back to the wee hours of the night :pensive:

04/24/2025 • 05:19 a.m.

omfg . hi guys (this is pastry btw)

it's been nearly a year since i last added anything new to this site.... because it's been so long, i figured that i should do a recap of last year since one (1) million things happened to me

this is my 2024 summarized in highlights:

1. january - got a job at an art museum as a gallery attendant / started antipsychotics
2. february - played a lot of stardew valley with my partner / did some wheel throwing
3. march - got my third lobes pierced / held a charcuterie board night / went back to therapy
4. april - started playing neopets again and got really into it
5. may - held a tiny art show / stopped my antipsychotics
6. june - celebrated my partner's birthday and my own (we're both gemini hehe)
7. july - participated in art fight
8. august - decided to grow my hair out
9. september - went on a trip with my partner / saw the ocean
10. october - went on another trip with my partner / met so many new (and old) friends / started zoloft
11. november - saw ginger root with my beloveds / graduated therapy / got my rook pierced
12. december - hung out with my brother / ended the year on a pretty good note

i'm not going to lie, it was really, really hard in the first half . just thinking about it makes me really sad . but the second half of the year was so beautiful . i spent so much time with my partner and my friends; i made really meaningful connections at my workplace; and i was able to repair my relationship with art by finding and embracing community

now we're finally caught up to 2025 !! already, so much has happened... i quit my job and decided zoloft is not the ssri for me, experienced some night life in the city, decided to go back to school, and got more piercings ↴

that's all for now . if you read all of that you're Crazyyy . crazy awesome :heart:

status: feels good to be on here again :)

02/11/2025 • 10:51 p.m.

yesterday was cool :D spent all day w my friends and older brother... larry (he is holding a lightsaber in the first image) has been going thru a star wars phase (again) and he decided to bring his lightsaber to mine and kaela's place LOL . i make fun of him for not RPing in wizard101 with a mutual friend of ours but then basically LARPING irl at our place......... but in all seriousness, it's really cool and the glow emitting from the lightsaber is super beautiful 😭

my brother has this habit of buying niche cooking paraphernelia to make certain dishes (like he literally bought a PIZZA OVEN that just sits in our backyard untouched for most of the year LOL) . with his new japanese grill, he made us yakitori that we ate on the driveway in the night breeze... eventually, we did start larping and taking photos

status: i love my friends + using the force on my brother

05/30/2023 • 03:38 a.m.