pressed some flowers the other week! i finally remembered to check them on sunday and they turned out super cute :) but... i have no idea what to do with them now LOL how do i make bookmarks with this shit

also did a pottery class with my boyfriend weeks ago and we finally picked up our pots! mine is the pink and brown one (it looks orange in the photo but it's a yellowy brown irl). i'm hooked... i need to go back to the studio ASAP. especially craving more throwing on the wheel since we weren't able to glaze the pots ourselves since it was a class with limitations.... WAUGHHH

status: feeling crafty

02/26/2024 • 11:31 P.M.

i'm freakin . back on the grind... i actually started writing this earlier at like 8pm but then i got tired and closed out of the page and fell asleep but THEN i woke up like an hour ago and got hungry (eating spaggy) and decided to work on this page a bit more so here we are....!!!!

and yes!!!!!!!!!!!!1 we believe in excessive ellipses to convey an artistic expression of verbal communication and . run off sentences EEe

status: lalala tbh

01/28/2024 • 02:12 A.M.

woah... i haven't written anything in this online journal in 3 MONTHS?? that's freaking crazy . but it makes sense bc i kind of fell into a super slump these past couple months :( school's been getting to me and whatnot but I'M ALMOST DONE!!!!!

on a kinder note, bf and i have been eating lots of home cooked yummies and we started playing fnaf 1 and 2 for the first time ever in our Lives...... it's so fun and actually not like scary? when i play, it feels more like a thriller than a horror game (even tho i don't think that's like . a thing) with jumpscares that just make my heart race

anyways, that's all for now! ^_^

status: back 2 tinkering

09/19/2023 • 12:20 A.M.

yesterday was cool :D spent all day w my friends (jc, kaela, and larry) and my older brother... larry's been going thru a star wars era (again) and he decided to bring his lightsaber to mine and kaela's place LOL . i make fun of him for not mutually RPing in wizard101 with JC but then basically LARPING irl at our place......... but in all seriousness, it's really cool and the light emitting from the lightsaber is super beautiful 😭

my brother made us yakitori (with his new japanese grill btw cuz he has this issue? blessing?? where he buys niche cooking paraphernelia to make certain dishes Like he literally bought a PIZZA OVEN that just sits in our backyard that sits untouched for most of the year LOL) and we sat in the frontyard and ate in the night breeze together . then we all started larping and taking photos tbh

status: i love my friends + using the force on my brother

05/30/2023 • 03:38 A.M.

i want to open pixel commissions but i've been holding back cuz i don't think my pixel stuff is where i want it to be :( i think i'd feel like i'd be doing ppl a disservice if i opened comms now... but my friends were rly nice and encouraged me to do it so HMM will be thinking

AND, today was the best day that i've had in a while :0 lots of productivity and focus . i think i broke the depression cycle of the month LET'S GOOOO !!!!

status: yay

05/25/2023 • 03:00 A.M.

unfortunately, i am awake . however, i did a lot of fulfilling stuff to make up for the lack of personal creative productivity i got done during the week... i even made a song!

but uh yeah... i'm goin g to bed now so that tomorrow i can do my coding project that i submitted Unfinished

status: EXPLOSION!!!!

05/20/2023 • 05:33 A.M.

hi guys . i just realized that i'm 4 weeks into my coding bootcamp which means there are only 20 weeks left EEEE...! i finished a project yesterday so to celebrate, i'm eating(drinking?) a small cup of oat milk that has 3 GF oreos in it . pretty yummy but i think 3 oreos was a bit much...too sweet.

we've been covering javascript in class these past 2 weeks and i feel like i am mentally getting sucked down a toilet hole everytime i have to write original functions and whatnot but it's Ok . we ride

status: （；へ：）

05/05/2023 • 01:04 A.M.

I FINISHED MY FUCKING CODING BOOTCAMP PRE-WORK

status: THANK FUCK

04/09/2023 • 07:45 P.M.

everyday i just code until i turn into mush it's no t hard i am just so good at doing nothing (positive) that when i do a lot of something i die . i am absorbing so much material you wouldn't even believe... this compared to drawing which takes 0 energy . in fact it's invigorating

i mean both are very satisfying activities because i am a process-oriented peson and i love meticulous activity but wow, this is 10x harder cuz i have to resist the urge to draw PLEEESE I WANT TO DRAW SO BAD

status: i've got jelly brain rn

04/09/2023 • 01:00 A.M.

oh son of a bitch

i did indeed . get into the coding bootcamp (but also it's not really anything to go Wow about cuz that shit was easy to get in) AND i have been assigned a 3 unit pre-work assignment . which i am so close to being done i'm on unit 3 rn BUT i've literally been sitting here coding this blog to make it sexy and cute smh

i learned how to do git stuff and part of the pre-work assignment is going over HTML and CSS lmaooo They don't know i know how to do this but hehehe all the easier for me . straight up though it's very exhausting reading so much shit for the lessons and having to store it in my brain

status: felt like that guy who works out at the library (T⋀T)

04/08/2023 • 01:00 A.M.

i have updated this once more . not much but just moving some words around n making this a little cleaner

i also have decided to apply for a coding bootcamp at my old university Q_Q i hope i get in... apparently there's like an interview process but umm, they did say u could apply knowing like Nothing about coding so . i'm sure i'll be fine lolol . i want a stable income job + i like coding = i win if they accept my ahh WISH ME LUCK!

04/01/2023 • 05:02 A.M.

dear diary, i cannot for the life of stop coding late at night . so much for fixing my sleep schedule :[ it's almost 4am rn so i'm going to stop now.... fawk BUT i spent tn figuring out how to resize font/pics for when ur on mobile.. i feel so giddy doing this . tmrw ? i will learn how to do it for yt videos too but for now GN !!

03/12/2023

holy poop i decided to make a website . cuz i've always wanted to and damn it looks good already even with my peanut brain... i started yesterday and now it's freaking 2:53am and i'm kind of killing it .

03/11/2023