this is my july summarized:

1. i celebrated 4 years with my partner (love u derrbear ❤️)



2. i saw my former coworkers at a birthday party... there was a dj set in the garage but it was waaay too hot for that LOL . idrk what they were thinking . arizonans make do i guess
3. i spent a day out in town with some beloved friends . we had sammies, visited a local bookstore + record store, and celebrated national lollipop day (i marked this on my calendar sometime in late june because i saw a flyer for it in the mall.... LMFAO)
   
   my haul, left to right: authority by jeff vandermeer, the power of cute by simon may, the secret lives of color by kassia st. clair, still by erika de casier, 2 free lollipops from see's candies 😭 (not pictured)
4. i struggled like hell to draw for art fight (art blocked from a depressive episode smh)

this month, i'll be going back to school; i'm starting a new chapter of my life where i'll be pursuing my second degree—a BS in social and behavioral sciences . i'm really excited but also a bit terrified... it's been 3 years since i graduated college . what if my head's full of rocks now.... but there's no point in self-doubt . i'm determined to learn and apply the knowledge that i do have to my studies !! i just have to remember self-discipline when it comes to deadlines since it'll be completely online this time around o_O

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status: today is a filler episode

08/02/2025 • 06:02 a.m.

i meant to write about my may and june experiences but... as you can see... i did not 😎 heh heh . but i will now !!

before talking about the awesome parts, i'd like to make a note that my home life is kind of poop right now cuz of my parents... and since may and june are months that celebrate mothers and fathers, i'm taking a moment to say it's okay to have complex and/or negative feelings about your parents . and it's okay to say FUCK MOTHER'S AND FATHER'S DAYYYY !!!!!! moving on.........

this is my may summarized:

1. my friends and i went to a 90's house night at a gay club in town . it was... crazy . cuz it really was like this tumblr post
met some beautiful souls, had some drinks and street tacos, and danced the night away
2. i got an upper endoscopy and a colonoscopy 😀 it was fine... the experience itself was the best cuz my bf took care of me pre- and post-op though
3. i forced my bf to watch naruto (which he loves now)

this is my june summarized:

1. for a couple of nights, my best friend kaela and i kept our good friend company while she went through a crazy break up? umm....... well they sort of broke up and then got back together haha 😀 all i got to say...? the lesbian dating scene in az is a difficult one
2. i celebrated my bf's birthday and then my own . love my friends sm !!!!
3. i went to the casino w/ friends for the first time (came for the vibes)

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status: realizing i can only bring myself to update my website when i Really feel like it.......

07/01/2025 • 10:58 p.m.

hi hi hi !!!! it's been a bit so let me write of my recent adventures (reverse chronologically)

04/12: the besties and i went to go see the naruto: the symphonic experience and it was seriously awesome . they encourage the audience to interact with the performance (ex. when an iconic scene is played, you can cheer) so of course i had to cry and clap whenever gaara was on screen........... but omfg . when kimimaro was on screen, everyone cheered (of course) but i screamed so loud that my voice filled the entire theater 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they don't understand how serious i am about him

03/28-03/31: spent a few days in chicago to visit my brother w/ the lads

03/21: our wonderful friend maddie visited hehe . we hung out late into the night.. and of course, we went into a photo booth for some printable memories

02/06: my friend malina and i went to a lesbian bar and i tried to help her get some ladies' numbers #NightLife

we took these super cute photos and i love them sooo much but it kills me so bad cuz WHY DO WE LOOK LIKE JOHN LENNON AND YOKO ONO HELP MEEEE 😭 do you see it...? i think it's my glasses.........

my beautifully busy late winter + spring season so far ^_^ wish spring could last just a little longer . i don't miss the summer heat.....

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status: back to the wee hours of the night :pensive:

04/24/2025 • 05:19 a.m.

omfg . hi guys (this is pastry btw)

it's been nearly a year since i last wrote in this diary and added anything new to this site.... because it's been so long, i figure that i should do a recap of last year since one (1) million things happened to me

this is my 2024 summarized in highlights:

1. january - got a job at an art museum as a gallery attendant / started antipsychotics
2. february - played a lot of stardew valley with my partner / did some wheel throwing
3. march - got my third lobes pierced / held a charcuterie board night / went back to therapy
4. april - started playing neopets again and got really into it
5. may - held a tiny art show / stopped my antipsychotics
6. june - celebrated my partner's birthday and my own (we're both gemini hehe)
7. july - participated in art fight
8. august - decided to grow my hair out
9. september - went on a trip with my partner / saw the ocean
10. october - went on another trip with my partner / met so many new (and old) friends / started zoloft
11. november - saw ginger root with my beloveds / graduated therapy / got my rook pierced
12. december - hung out with my brother / ended the year on a pretty good note

i'm not going to lie, it was really, really hard in the first half . just thinking about it makes me really sad . but the second half of the year was so beautiful . i spent so much time with my partner and my friends; i made really meaningful connections at my workplace; and i was able to repair my relationship with art by finding and embracing community

now we're finally caught up to 2025 !! already, so much has happened... i quit my job and decided zoloft is not the ssri for me, experienced some night life in the city, decided to go back to school, and got more piercings ↴

that's all for now . if you read all of that you're Crazyyy . crazy awesome :heart:

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status: feels good to be on here again :)

02/11/2025 • 10:51 p.m.

did a pottery class with my boyfriend weeks ago and we finally picked up our pots! mine is the pink and brown one (it looks orange in the photo but it's a yellowy brown irl)

i'm hooked... i need to go back to the studio ASAP. especially craving more throwing on the wheel since we weren't able to glaze the pots ourselves since it was a class with limitations.... WAUGHHH

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status: feeling crafty

02/26/2024 • 11:31 p.m.

yesterday was cool :D spent all day w my friends (jc, kaela, and larry) and my older brother... larry's been going thru a star wars era (again) and he decided to bring his lightsaber to mine and kaela's place LOL . i make fun of him for not mutually RPing in wizard101 with JC but then basically LARPING irl at our place......... but in all seriousness, it's really cool and the light emitting from the lightsaber is super beautiful 😭

my brother made us yakitori (with his new japanese grill btw cuz he has this issue? blessing?? where he buys niche cooking paraphernelia to make certain dishes Like he literally bought a PIZZA OVEN that just sits in our backyard that sits untouched for most of the year LOL) and we sat in the frontyard and ate in the night breeze together . then we all started larping and taking photos tbh

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status: i love my friends + using the force on my brother

05/30/2023 • 03:38 a.m.